Sitting Still.

I.  Am.  Terrible.  At it.

But sit, I must.  I listen to this creaky old house sing to me under the duress of a fierce country breeze.  I sip my coffee, drawing in every earthy note of flavor.  I sit here in the still of the morning, before first streams of light, before the pitter patter of little feet coming down the stairs, before the bustling day begins, and I ponder.  

Lots of things.  

Funny how things can change so fast.

Little more than a week ago, The Man and I went for our ultrasound.  The big one.  And you’ll never believe it, but we will be welcoming another sweet little princess to our home.  I cannot tell you how thrilled we are.  I guess God thinks that we are starting to get the hang of it by now.  The Man is positively glowing and I am beside-myself-giddy.

But we also found out something else, a fairly serious complication that I wasn’t expecting.  It’s something called a complete previa.  The doctor said it would probably cause problems later on in the pregnancy and I would have to deliver by c-section.  New territory, but I figured we’d cross that bridge when we got there.  A few short days later, I was admitted to the hospital for problems already.  I was reluctantly released from the hospital under strict doctor’s orders.  (And when I arrived home, The Man had a lovely fresh cup of chocolate coffee waiting for me.  How is that for love?)

Take.  It.  Easy.  (Ha!)

Things wouldn’t be such a concern, except that I now have a condition that could cause a life-threatening hemorrhage at a moment’s notice and I live a daunting ninety minutes from the big city hospital that is equipped to deal with that.  (Hello, Country Living!)  So as much as I adore living in the middle of nowhere, right now… not so much.

Another admission or two to the hospital and my doctor is ordering me to stay in the big city until delivery time.  Away from my lovely little family.  *sigh*

Thank God for devoted friends who are stepping into help me “take it easy.”  Bringing meals.  Helping me clean.  Directing the Christmas kids’ musical in my stead.  I am even more terrible at letting people help me.  But I’m trying to let my control-freakness go.  

Honestly, I am pretty much going berserk.  It’s the holiday season.  I should be baking pies like mad, crafting to my heart’s content, and decorating til the cows come home.   And Ladybug’s birthday party this weekend?  Her much-anticipated homemade pinata will now be store-bought.  I suppose in the grand scheme of things, it doesn’t matter.  Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

But here, I sit.  Awaiting the “official” bed rest order that is surely in my future.  I fully intend to not re-enter that hospital until at least February, with admission to the delivery side of the floor, not the bed rest side.  

I’ll try to keep up here.  But my schedule is now strewn with even more doctor visits.  Theoretically, I should have even more time to blog… but we’ll see how that goes.

I covet your prayers.

“You will keep in perfect peace
    him whose mind is steadfast,
    because he trusts in you.”

Isaiah 26.3 

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The Best.

I waited for it.  I could have settled for less.  But I waited.  And it was worth it.  

He is the best.  God’s best.  For me.  

I often wonder if people really understood how tough marriage can be, would they go through with it?  So many quit just before it gets good.  There is a sweet certain something about having weathered something fierce together that tightens the marital bond.  And believe me, there have been moments.  Curve balls come.  Finances get tight.  Sleepless nights ensue.  But he is there.  And he loves me.  And he models His greater love for me.  

And it works.  

It’s our favorite time of year.  And time to celebrate something special.  It’s our date-a-versary.  

Twelve years.

And it’s time he had a name.  Of course, he has a given name, but as of yet, in the blogosphere he has only been known “Sweet Hubby” or “Dear “Hubby” or any other cheesy sort of moniker I can conjure up at the given moment.  Of course, my girls are known as Peanut, Ladybug, and Lovey… but hubby?  I have no idea.  I have been thinking on this for some time and continually draw a blank.

Naturally, there are the ridiculously sweet sort of names such as Honey Buns, Pookie Bear, and
Love Muffin, but I don’t think I want to go there.

He is unwaveringly devoted to technology and all things computer-related, but “Mr. Roboto” doesn’t seem to jive with me. 

He is hopelessly analytical, but “Anal” doesn’t seem the best way to go here, either.

He is enthusiastically drawn to all things outdoors.  He is a man in every sense of the word.  Tall, strapping, handsome, and makes-me-weak-at-the-knee rugged.  Perhaps, that would suit him best:  The Man.    

My dearest, you are heretofore known as “The Man.”  As if you needed any confirmation.

Happy Date-A-Versary!  

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9 Lives?

So along with my profound love for the changing of the season, my sweet little ones are learning to deal with the seasons of life.  (Cue Lion King soundtrack.)   

As we were feeding the sweet little kittens recently, the girls noticed our sweet Fozzy wasn’t there.  It wasn’t unusual, because as country cats those critters roam all over and come whenever they please.  Later that evening, we discovered him in the road just in front of the mailbox.  Just like a pancake.  

*sigh*  

I cried.  I’m pregnant.  So I really cried.  He was my favorite.  

When we arrived home from church later that evening we couldn’t see him in the road. Ladybug said sweetly, “Oh, heaven has already come for him.”  (Or a coyote.)  Nevertheless, bestill my heart.  I love that child.

And I miss my kitty.  

Loving on the kittens.

Boss Kitty (the gutsy, orange, and dangerously overweight cat who is Garfield incarnate) has been missing for weeks.  I have reluctantly come to the conclusion that he has tempted fate one too many times by wrangling with a combine or one of the free-spirited teenagers who speed down our road.  

In other news, I am officially declaring that I am giving up on giving up coffee.  It’s simply not working.  I love this baby and I take pregnancy pretty seriously, but this girl has got to have a little more caffeine in the tank or life will not be possible.  Or at the very least, I will be a more pleasant person to deal with on a daily basis.  One a day.  And then it’s on to decaf… ugh.  

I hope this is not a slippery slope… 

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Hiding.

Pssssst.  

Please, don’t tell my calendar I am here.  It scares me.  

I am officially in hiding.  I have gone a little AWOL as of late.  And every precious moment of down time I can wrangle has been devoted to my sweet angels.  (That would also include my hubby.) 

How did September get like this?  October isn’t shaping up to be any better.  So I embrace the fullness of life and make the most of every moment.  Sans caffeinated coffee.

I would also like to take this moment to state that my hubby is a rock star.  Numero uno:  He has resigned himself to decaf coffee for the duration of this pregnancy.  He claims it’s for health reasons, but I think he secretly loves me.  A lot.  Point #2:  After 4 days without hot water, that smokin’ hunk of a man fixed the water heater.  Fact three:  He bought me ice cream.

He.  Is.  My.  Hero.

Peanut is way too smart for her britches (she has bested me in science, but please, don’t tell her that), Ladybug lost her second tooth (popped right out onto the table at breakfast last week), and Lovey continues to eat my deodorant (I stumbled onto her secret stash hidden behind the futon in the spare bedroom today).  *sigh* 

In the meantime, I am thoroughly enjoying the cooler fall temperatures and feeling especially inspired to whip up all kinds of tasty food.  I have a whole slew of new recipes to post soon.

I also have a freezer full of deer meat and nary an idea what to do with it.  I am open to suggestions, should anyone have some.

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Eleven.

Patriot Day.

I am out of words really.  Tears speak louder these days.  Still so fresh.  I cried all morning as I watched the news footage.  Again.  

I cried all yesterday as I searched for some sort of age-appropriate activity or video to help my little ones commemorate this day.  In the end, it was better to just speak from my heart.  And show them a few photos.  And honor the heroes of the day.  

And, of course, squeeze them tightly with lots of kisses.

Peanut asked, “Were there children on those planes?”  Ladybug bravely stated, “If I saw a terrorist, I would beat them up and kick them in an important place.”  Lovey just kept coloring.

My heart is sad, yet full of hope for the future.  

I do not think I can recount the rush of emotion from that day any better than I did in last year’s post.  (I Remember.)  Still feels like yesterday.

So undeniably proud to be an American. 

Love & Coffee.

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Has it been…

40 weeks yet?  *sigh*  No?

I admit this pregnancy is positively crawling along.  

I’m tired.  Dog tired.  Pregnant at 33 is a heck of a lot different than pregnant at 25.  Perhaps it’s my age or perhaps it’s simply the fact that I have three lovelies to chase around all day long.  Any way you slice it, I’m tired.  

Or it could be that I have successfully (well, mostly) kicked my caffeine habit for the time being.  (Except a couple of nights ago when I absolutely went crazy and had a lovely cup of coffee with dinner and found myself still wide awake playing Yahtzee on my Kindle at 2:30 am.  Bad choice.)  

 New rule.  If I must cave to the caffeine, it must occur before noon.  Period.  No exceptions.  End of story.

I have been waiting for that mythical second trimester energy boost to kick in.   

Still waiting 

Mythical, I tell you.  

The good news is that after eight days of a nasty virus making the rounds here at home, we are finally well.  Finally.  

And I am nesting.  Early, I know, but nesting just the same.  I cleaned the rugs, scrubbed and polished the wood floors, reorganized the utility room and the pantry, and formulated a plan of attack for the rest of the house.

Come to think of it… maybe that’s why I’m so tired.

Either way. 

I’m tired.   

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School Days.

It begins.

Monday was the first day of school.  I am a home school mom and there are countless things I love about our school. 
In so many ways I am ready.  In others, not so much.  I am ready in the sense that I vehemently crave the routine that goes into a school day after a carefree summer.  It’s funny how that school routine seems to carry over into other areas of my life.  Everything is on a schedule.  I plan meals more carefully.  Laundry actually gets put away.  Dishes are done.  Order is restored. 

I am not ready when I think about the fact that summer is essentially done and my girlies are now a full grade ahead of themselves.

Third grade.  First grade.  Preschool.
My sweet babies are… older.  How does this happen? 

As with most families this time of year, we have been riddled with doctor appointments.  Well checks, immunizations, dentist appointments, not to mention the slew of baby doctor visits I have since added to my schedule.  

It’s been an amazingly healthy year for our family.  Until now.  

Funny how perfectly healthy people make visits to do the doctor to confirm they are healthy and two days later, the entire family is chilling with fever, subsisting on Tylenol, and overfilling every available trash receptacle with spent tissues.

It seems that everyone is now well.  Except me, of course.

No rest for the wicked, however.  The cupboards are bare and they won’t fill themselves.  Off to the grocery I go….

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Upon Returning…

The house was clean.  And intact.  My world did not implode without me here. I couldn’t have been more impressed.
Amazing.
I didn’t doubt my sweet hubby.  It’s just that this has never happened before.  Me… leaving.  And I’m pretty sure it won’t be happening anytime again soon.  Ladybug and Lovey didn’t seem to mind so much, but Peanut melted into a puddle of tears as I and my traveling companions drove away.  I couldn’t look.  
Like, I said… not happening again anytime soon. 
I had a great trip and now I am feverishly scrambling to catch up on life.  School begins in little more than a week.  There are lessons to plan, papers to file, and supplies to organize.  
I look forward to this time of year.  The temperature is already cooling and I am itching to entertain friends with a cozy bonfire and good coffee.  
So much to love.  
And there is one more thing I should probably share… but I’ll save that for tomorrow.  
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Away.

That’s where I’m going.  Away.  I am utterly beside myself.  For seven long days, I will be road-tripping away from my family.  Yes, the three angels and my devilishly handsome husband.  This has never happened before.  Ever.
I never leave my babies.  I am just one of those mamas that is always… here.  It’s a business trip of sorts.  Necessary and pleasurable.  I am blessed to be traveling with good friends.  I intend to keep myself busy enough to make it go fast so I can come home to my sweet girls and the aforementioned hubby.
He is certainly more than capable. I have no doubts about that.  But nevertheless, Honey… a few notes:
1.  Deodorant must remain under lock and key.  Or Lovey will eat it.  We both know this.  The number for Poison Control is on the fridge.
2.  Sharpies belong on the the high shelf.  Or Lovey will suck the ink out of those, too.  Again, the number for Poison Control is on the fridge.
3.  If Ladybug says her room is clean, one look under the bed and into her closet will prove otherwise.
4.  Peanut will undoubtedly refuse to eat if any food on her plate is touching another food on her plate.  You can also forget about it if you touch any of her food with your bare fingers.  Or speak in her general direction, causing spittle to possibly contaminate her food.  Germophobia is not genetic.  I swear.  
5.  Lovey can now scale the kitchen cupboards unassisted.  She is entirely capable of consuming an entire container of popcorn salt, colored sugar, or birthday sprinkles in about 10 seconds flat.  Stay on your toes.  If this happens, flush with water and brace yourself for the imminent sugar high to follow.
6.  It is Ladybug’s turn to put the soap in the dishwasher, regardless of what anyone may try to tell you.  I have drawn up a schedule.  It’s on the fridge, right next to the number for Poison Control.  
7.  There is a container of chocolate ice cream hidden in the back of freezer.  Feel free to self-medicate.  
8.  If Lovey eats my herbal face wash again, don’t sweat it.  Jason from Poison Control says it’s harmless.  Yeah, we are on a first-name basis.  I think you will like him!  And once again, the number is on the fridge. 
9.   Potty training for Lovey is not going well.  Consider yourself warned.  Good luck with that. 
10.  When all else fails…  coffee.
Kiss my babies.  Takes loads of pictures.  And call often.
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Battle Update.

For anyone who may be wondering what became of the situation from this post:  This Is War.
The mouse… is toast.  
After arriving home with what I can only call the ultimate rodent death trap, that critter really didn’t stand a chance.
Hubby gets all the credit.  And yes, he asked me to post this.  
He.  Is.  My.  Hero.